Fandom: KAT-TUN
Title: Falling to pieces
Pairing: Akanishi Jin x Taguchi Junnosuke (plus a bit of AKame)
Genre: ¿angst?, lime, High school!AU
Rating: NC-17 (to be safe)
Summary: Akanishi can't stand his kouhai's smile anymore.
Notes: First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
elanielyn ! ^^ Second, I FAILED. I don't know how it ended like this, but this is one of the strangest fics I've ever written. Not even considering my pathetic attempt to write a rape -I couldn't turn it to be another way, though I know I fail at writing things like these-, I'm not sure this can be called angst. I need someone to tell me the truth: it's crap.1300 exact words of crap. And no, I'm not saying it just because. This time I actually think it sucks. Anyway, please tell me what you think *puppy eyes*
“Senpai… please…”
Akanishi thrust faster than before, ignoring his kohai’s moans. He felt like he couldn’t stop, not at the moment in which he felt he finally got what he wanted. The moans were louder at first, yet they sounded as if Taguchi was somehow having fun, as if he was laughing. Akanishi couldn’t put up with that, so he tried to hurt him on purpose. He had to feel the pain. Taguchi had to feel the pain so hard that he’d never forget how to cry and moan.
Why don’t you grin and bear it now?
“It hurts…please…”
Akanishi stopped and lowered his head to watch his kohai’s expression. He got harder when he saw his stupid smile turned into a grimace, the tears scratching his cheeks. At last, yes. He was gasping, and the fear was beginning to show in his eyes.
When his senpai started moving inside him again, Taguchi couldn’t help but letting a loud cry out. Akanishi drooped and his forehead leaned on Taguchi’s collarbone. He then noticed there was a red mark on his shoulder, and bit his lower lip in pleasure. Perhaps his rage at the cafeteria, after all, had cut Taguchi.
---
“Haven’t you heard what I fucking said?!”
It was not after Akanishi’s yell, but after the sound of the glass breaking against the floor when the whole cafeteria fell silent. Everyone turned their heads slowly to see what had happened.
Akanishi was panting; in front of him, his kohai had fallen flat into the ground. He had moved his hand away just in time not to be cut by the tiny crystal pieces.
“Are you okay, Taguchi?” his senpai Nakamaru asked, offering his hand for him to hold.
Taguchi grabbed it and got up helping himself with his other hand. Akanishi was glaring at him, his fists clenched again when Taguchi said it was nothing, smiling again. A member of the cafeteria staff came up to sweep the glass pieces and asked if everything was alright. Kamenashi apologized for his classmate and forced him to sit. Akanishi snorted.
“Calm down, Jin” Kamenashi whispered on his ear.
“I knew that something like this was about to happen” Tanaka said, biting an apple. Ueda nodded slightly. Akanishi was staring again at Taguchi, who had gone for another glass of water. “If you let Taguchi get on your nerves, it’s over. That’s why we don’t pay attention to him anymore when he tries to make jokes during classes”.
Taguchi came back to his seat and placed the glass next to Akanishi’s tray. His senpai downed the water in one go, his eyes still fixed in that dumb smile that was always there. Even when he was about to hit his face, Taguchi didn’t show any sign of being afraid. Somehow, call it luck, he managed to avoid his punch, too. And there he was, sitting beside him, in the exact place he didn’t want him to sit down.
What always made him angry were not Taguchi’s lame attitude, but the fact that he never complaint, no matter how harsh Akanishi spoke or treated him. That pissed him off the most. The way he was always hyper and smiling, as if he didn’t have the same problems as his friends or he didn’t care about anything. What made him so special?
“Are you going to finish eating your fries, senpai?” Taguchi asked, pointing at Akanishi’s plate.
There were only a few left and they were all cold and greasy, but anyway Akanishi picked up his fork and crammed them into his mouth.
Fuck him.
---
The moment he found Taguchi alone in his classroom, after Tanaka and his other classmates were gone, his impulse was to finish once and for all with him. At first, his kohai didn’t even notice his presence; apparently, he was too engrossed in looking through the window.
“Ah, senpai!” he had exclaimed when Akanishi’s hands touched his shoulders.
“Are you okay? I didn’t mean to hurt you this morning”
It was too easy to lie to him, far easier than erasing his smile.
“Yes, it was nothing” of course, he was smiling - again. Akanishi frowned. “Aren’t you walking home with Kamenashi-senpai?”
“It’s too early to go home yet”
Akanishi took a chair and sat in front of his kohai. Taguchi turned his head to look at him. His senpai cleared his throat.
“Don’t you think we haven’t spoken much lately? You know… we share the same friends group, we see each other everyday… but we don’t quite get on”.
He could tell from the look on Taguchi’s face that he was clueless. What a stupid guy. Considering all the time that Akanishi had spent bullying him, at least he could be aware of his thoughts.
“I hate you” he said, the words slipping out of his mouth like poison. Taguchi raised his eyebrows, and he’s still smiling, why? Akanishi, far from feeling relieved after that, felt sort of a fever coming up to his head, his temples throbbing. He was suddenly sick. All he wished in that moment was to prove Taguchi that nobody could defeat him, that he could have him begging for mercy on his knees if he wanted. Akanishi pushed him to the floor and grabbed the collar of his shirt. “And I’m making sure you don’t forget this”.
At first, he only thought in beating him up. However, when he saw that Taguchi wasn’t even ready to defend himself, his anger grew deeper, and he lost control. He felt his kohai’s body shivering as his lips touched the corner of his mouth. The kiss was rude and harsh. Akanishi let Taguchi feel the warmth of his senpai’s breath through his throat before breaking it.
Cry, groan, and suffer until you know what it means.
Taguchi wasn’t given the opportunity to say anything before being pushed again into a table. He held his breath when his senpai touched his crotch. The lower part of his body was naked soon afterwards, two cold hands spreading his thighs, and in the following minutes everything was pain.
---
He knew it was time to stop when he couldn’t stand Taguchi’s tightness around him and was ready to come for the second time. His kohai’s legs were still wide spread after Akanishi got out of him, and his arms were hanging at both sides of the tables he was lying flat on. Akanishi looked at him while searching in his bag for another shirt to change. Taguchi was still breathless, eyes closed, his uniform trousers and pants pathetically pulled down to his ankles.
“You clean all this mess up” his senpai told him, checking his watch to see he was indeed late to meet Kamenashi.
Taguchi sighed and nodded, leaning on his elbows to get up. He rubbed his eyes and shook his head, just as if he had woken up from a nap. Akanishi looked at him out of the corner of his eyes, and then left like he arrived, without saying a word.
Once he was out of Akanishi’s sight, Taguchi’s lips curved to show the smile his senpai thought he had made disappear.
Of course I know you hate me. But that doesn’t mean I have to hate you too, senpai.
Of course he wasn’t always okay. Of course he had problems, and of course he got depressed like everyone else. But that didn’t mean that he had to give up smiling and making lemonade when life gave him lemons. What was wrong in trying to be happy?
If Akanishi felt better after doing that to him, it was okay. If feeling superior helped him not to be in a bad mood all the time, Taguchi accepted it. He couldn’t do anything else for him, though.
Title: Falling to pieces
Pairing: Akanishi Jin x Taguchi Junnosuke (plus a bit of AKame)
Genre: ¿angst?, lime, High school!AU
Rating: NC-17 (to be safe)
Summary: Akanishi can't stand his kouhai's smile anymore.
Notes: First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
elanielyn ! ^^ Second, I FAILED. I don't know how it ended like this, but this is one of the strangest fics I've ever written. Not even considering my pathetic attempt to write a rape -I couldn't turn it to be another way, though I know I fail at writing things like these-, I'm not sure this can be called angst. I need someone to tell me the truth: it's crap.1300 exact words of crap. And no, I'm not saying it just because. This time I actually think it sucks. Anyway, please tell me what you think *puppy eyes*“Senpai… please…”
Akanishi thrust faster than before, ignoring his kohai’s moans. He felt like he couldn’t stop, not at the moment in which he felt he finally got what he wanted. The moans were louder at first, yet they sounded as if Taguchi was somehow having fun, as if he was laughing. Akanishi couldn’t put up with that, so he tried to hurt him on purpose. He had to feel the pain. Taguchi had to feel the pain so hard that he’d never forget how to cry and moan.
Why don’t you grin and bear it now?
“It hurts…please…”
Akanishi stopped and lowered his head to watch his kohai’s expression. He got harder when he saw his stupid smile turned into a grimace, the tears scratching his cheeks. At last, yes. He was gasping, and the fear was beginning to show in his eyes.
When his senpai started moving inside him again, Taguchi couldn’t help but letting a loud cry out. Akanishi drooped and his forehead leaned on Taguchi’s collarbone. He then noticed there was a red mark on his shoulder, and bit his lower lip in pleasure. Perhaps his rage at the cafeteria, after all, had cut Taguchi.
---
“Haven’t you heard what I fucking said?!”
It was not after Akanishi’s yell, but after the sound of the glass breaking against the floor when the whole cafeteria fell silent. Everyone turned their heads slowly to see what had happened.
Akanishi was panting; in front of him, his kohai had fallen flat into the ground. He had moved his hand away just in time not to be cut by the tiny crystal pieces.
“Are you okay, Taguchi?” his senpai Nakamaru asked, offering his hand for him to hold.
Taguchi grabbed it and got up helping himself with his other hand. Akanishi was glaring at him, his fists clenched again when Taguchi said it was nothing, smiling again. A member of the cafeteria staff came up to sweep the glass pieces and asked if everything was alright. Kamenashi apologized for his classmate and forced him to sit. Akanishi snorted.
“Calm down, Jin” Kamenashi whispered on his ear.
“I knew that something like this was about to happen” Tanaka said, biting an apple. Ueda nodded slightly. Akanishi was staring again at Taguchi, who had gone for another glass of water. “If you let Taguchi get on your nerves, it’s over. That’s why we don’t pay attention to him anymore when he tries to make jokes during classes”.
Taguchi came back to his seat and placed the glass next to Akanishi’s tray. His senpai downed the water in one go, his eyes still fixed in that dumb smile that was always there. Even when he was about to hit his face, Taguchi didn’t show any sign of being afraid. Somehow, call it luck, he managed to avoid his punch, too. And there he was, sitting beside him, in the exact place he didn’t want him to sit down.
What always made him angry were not Taguchi’s lame attitude, but the fact that he never complaint, no matter how harsh Akanishi spoke or treated him. That pissed him off the most. The way he was always hyper and smiling, as if he didn’t have the same problems as his friends or he didn’t care about anything. What made him so special?
“Are you going to finish eating your fries, senpai?” Taguchi asked, pointing at Akanishi’s plate.
There were only a few left and they were all cold and greasy, but anyway Akanishi picked up his fork and crammed them into his mouth.
Fuck him.
---
The moment he found Taguchi alone in his classroom, after Tanaka and his other classmates were gone, his impulse was to finish once and for all with him. At first, his kohai didn’t even notice his presence; apparently, he was too engrossed in looking through the window.
“Ah, senpai!” he had exclaimed when Akanishi’s hands touched his shoulders.
“Are you okay? I didn’t mean to hurt you this morning”
It was too easy to lie to him, far easier than erasing his smile.
“Yes, it was nothing” of course, he was smiling - again. Akanishi frowned. “Aren’t you walking home with Kamenashi-senpai?”
“It’s too early to go home yet”
Akanishi took a chair and sat in front of his kohai. Taguchi turned his head to look at him. His senpai cleared his throat.
“Don’t you think we haven’t spoken much lately? You know… we share the same friends group, we see each other everyday… but we don’t quite get on”.
He could tell from the look on Taguchi’s face that he was clueless. What a stupid guy. Considering all the time that Akanishi had spent bullying him, at least he could be aware of his thoughts.
“I hate you” he said, the words slipping out of his mouth like poison. Taguchi raised his eyebrows, and he’s still smiling, why? Akanishi, far from feeling relieved after that, felt sort of a fever coming up to his head, his temples throbbing. He was suddenly sick. All he wished in that moment was to prove Taguchi that nobody could defeat him, that he could have him begging for mercy on his knees if he wanted. Akanishi pushed him to the floor and grabbed the collar of his shirt. “And I’m making sure you don’t forget this”.
At first, he only thought in beating him up. However, when he saw that Taguchi wasn’t even ready to defend himself, his anger grew deeper, and he lost control. He felt his kohai’s body shivering as his lips touched the corner of his mouth. The kiss was rude and harsh. Akanishi let Taguchi feel the warmth of his senpai’s breath through his throat before breaking it.
Cry, groan, and suffer until you know what it means.
Taguchi wasn’t given the opportunity to say anything before being pushed again into a table. He held his breath when his senpai touched his crotch. The lower part of his body was naked soon afterwards, two cold hands spreading his thighs, and in the following minutes everything was pain.
---
He knew it was time to stop when he couldn’t stand Taguchi’s tightness around him and was ready to come for the second time. His kohai’s legs were still wide spread after Akanishi got out of him, and his arms were hanging at both sides of the tables he was lying flat on. Akanishi looked at him while searching in his bag for another shirt to change. Taguchi was still breathless, eyes closed, his uniform trousers and pants pathetically pulled down to his ankles.
“You clean all this mess up” his senpai told him, checking his watch to see he was indeed late to meet Kamenashi.
Taguchi sighed and nodded, leaning on his elbows to get up. He rubbed his eyes and shook his head, just as if he had woken up from a nap. Akanishi looked at him out of the corner of his eyes, and then left like he arrived, without saying a word.
Once he was out of Akanishi’s sight, Taguchi’s lips curved to show the smile his senpai thought he had made disappear.
Of course I know you hate me. But that doesn’t mean I have to hate you too, senpai.
Of course he wasn’t always okay. Of course he had problems, and of course he got depressed like everyone else. But that didn’t mean that he had to give up smiling and making lemonade when life gave him lemons. What was wrong in trying to be happy?
If Akanishi felt better after doing that to him, it was okay. If feeling superior helped him not to be in a bad mood all the time, Taguchi accepted it. He couldn’t do anything else for him, though.
Thanks for reading!~
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